Beauty Painful Dream

Today I dreamed about my mother. I saw her very beautiful, she put red lipstick on her lips, with beautiful haircut. She came toward me and I was so surprised. I called her and suddenly I cried, I scream like I'm crazy. And I can't stop crying and made my brother came to my room. I don't know how many time I spent to cry and it made me felt tired the whole day. I'm confused to find out why do I have to cry when I saw my mother's so beautiful, I think I just miss her. I can't help but keep recalling her face on my mind, I am afraid that I, one day will forget the face. Hmmm .... Ma, I Love You    

I Am Ready

Finally!!! I'm back and I'm ready to make the changes.
Start from tomorrow, I'm going to enjoy my day.
I've planned to indulge my self.
Buy some things. I think I need light fragrance so I decided to buy perfume.
Then, I'm going to find my music instrument.
Yeahh!!!! I've decided to take classic piano class, so I need the instrument.
I'm thinking of having Samsung S4, but my sister thinks that is too much.
I acted like I'm confronting her but actually I really think about her words.
I need some novels too, to fulfill my nights before sleep.
When I talk about what I want or what I need it,there will be no end.
So no more sadness or the heavy thoughts.
All I have will be happiness.
Cheer up Ichin.
Thank you Jesus, my family and all of my friends, for being there no matter how horrible I am.
Love you love you love you
Muach.............................................

Love Poison

Hey love,

You rug me like a drug

Grab me from the dark

Fly me to the moon

'till I become a fool

Dear love,

You steal my soul

Play it like a doll

Then you break my heart

Leave me all the holes

Oh, love

Though I don't want to get hurt

Why I always come back to you

Then I know all I want is you

My love 

The Confusion

The sun goes down
The night has come
One step forward
And then I fall

This is not a game
Just a lethal fight
One can win
The other die

I need to know
I need to understand
Be my savior
Be my saint
Let me out of this failure